real talk with caitlin

last semester effectively ruined my ability to be able to entertain myself when i have no work to do. i’m pretty sure i’ve posted about this before but i seriously get into the shittiest mood whenever i can’t be in someone else’s room, can’t be out around campus doing something (like class), or have to be in my room alone without any friends/boyfriend here. i used to be able to pass the time by derping around on the internet but for some reason i just can’t do it anymore. i always want someone around because it just feels more fun or something to that extent. i almost said less lonely but i don’t feel lonely so that would be a weird and kind of inaccurate way to describe it even though that’s kind of what it sounds like. this is the main reason why winter break was so awful for me, too. i know there’s always somewhere i can go but it sucks when everyone else has work to do because as much as i’d just like to sit there with them and do nothing/keep to myself while they’re doing work i can’t help but feel like i’m just being annoying or bothersome. tonight is shitty.

tl;dr: I’M BORED AND I FEEL ANNOYING FUCK THE POLICE